Jack left to fly back to the ranch New Years morning after breakfast and we all went to our place and I haven't heard from him since. I have been a wreck for the last few days wondering who I am. Jack came home wondering who he is and unloaded his monkeys on me and left and now I am carrying his monkeys around wondering who I am. I guess I am his whore just waiting to hear the sound of his voice to make me well again. I am so fucking tired of all of this shit. I don't want it, I don't need it and he can have all of his fucking monkeys along with his introverted, insecure life. I am done with waiting for him to fly in and carry me away. I have fell into depression all because of him and I hate it. Maybe I should be done with him too.

     Sally has been spending time with me trying to cheer me up. We have been there for each other many times in the past supporting each other when one of us was down. I guess that's what makes good friends. We have been sleeping together the last several nights she snuggles and hugs me and rubs my back. She went down on me a few times trying to make me better. I started feeling bad for her and let her fuck me a few times and we would snuggle and go to sleep, sometimes she fucks me to sleep. I would really like for Christine to fuck me again. She has been very busy at work with all the fender benders in the snow. I may try to get alone with her tomorrow and see what happens. For tonight I want Sally to do me.
 
     Sally, Bobby, Kit and I are leaving to go to Miami on Monday for the photo shoot. We are driving down and taking our time and Sally's crew is flying down on Thursday and meeting us at the hotel on Thursday evening for dinner. This is like a mini vacation, the driving down and the drive back is the fun part and the photo shoot is all fun too. We need to be away from the cold and the snow even if all the snow is gone now, it will snow more before winter is over. I am really looking forward to this trip, it will be fun..............KB