Jack called me from the ranch to tell me he was working on his new plane. I will not be in New York until Monday, maybe we can meet for lunch at Chowders around noon, he said. Sure Jack, that would be fun. Good, I will see you then. and he hung up. I understand why women get so mad at their guys. The Guys work on their cars to impress the girls and the girls would rather just be with the guys, they have no idea why a car means so much to the guys. Jack has always had the John-Hooker relationship with women and I come along and let him do what ever he wanted to me and he was really feeling safe and he was really starting to like me and the fact I am male, the HOMO thing grabbed him by the ass and he can't shake it off. He wants to fuck me and he can't because he would be gay, At first it was my V string and he loved it and it is safe. then he screwed my ass on the boat then he gave me a blow job and he was accepting it until the thing with the dildos and the poppers and he loved it then he lost it completely. Now he thinks he's Gay, but if he stops fucking me he won't be gay anymore. I think we're on the same page but he lost his book. Jack can be alot of fun, but he is so fucking macho sometimes. I guess it's the money thing. If two people want to have sex it's their business regardless of their sex. I had just turned fourteen when I met Sally and soon we were experimenting with sex and I never thought anything about it other than I was having great sex, much better than jacking off like most of the kids in school. Sally and I played around for about sixteen years when she moved to New York, We were called names for crossdressing and we really didn't care. We dated boys and they didn't care either. Why is every one so up tight? because people like us are having fun and they aren't The straight boys we dated in school would sometimes get a blow job and sometimes they would blow us and some times they would fuck us and sometimes we would fuck them. Today they are the kind of up tight people with the HOMO fears. They had fun as kids experimenting with us and we did the same with them and it was Ok at the time, Now they are grown up they can't handle what they did with us or to us. and that brings me back to Jack. Jack had fun with me for a while but I am transsexual and is he going back to dating transsexuals like he did before me? We will see !
     Everyone is ready for Christmas here in New York. It is very cold and snow and ice are everywhere. The lights are beautiful and Christmas trees decorate yards and houses and businesses and streets and parks and decorations are everywhere you look. Vegas had snow yesterday and the years I lived there I only saw snow a few times and it was gone the next day usually. Christmas there is nothing compared to New York. We are all going to drive around and look at the lights if the weather clears enough before Christmas. We will see what the weather brings tomorrow..........KB